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Inconceivable

I know it's inconcievable.
Two days and I'm already seemingly gone.
And yes, I was definitely there.
It's not that it meant nothing.
And it's not that I am fickle.
Just that, somehow, I'm ready
There were no questions left unanswered.
No feelings mismatched.
So far as we know.

Perhaps that's why there's ease here
Why I'm doubting everyone else
While at the same time sure of myself.
What will people say?
What will people see?
What will people think?

His affection and attraction?
They've persisted for four years.
Three of which, I was too emotionally blind to see him.
But moving on so quickly?
I know what will come from all outside sources.
"He's just a rebound."

But...
He's not.
I am sure of it.

My dear, your affections are true.
Four years of being rejected.
For lack of a better word.
Four years of watching me
Choose others and get hurt.
When you knew, you would be better than them.

And your affections do not deserve to have
That immediate questioning put upon them.

Give it time,
I will come...quickly.
Trust me please.

For I have never felt so at ease
Nor so safe.
In the arms of a man.
And my words
And my smile
Have never come so easily around another.

You have seen me
In the highest elation
And the pits of despair.
Yet you are still here.
Please, linger a while longer
As only a friend.

Because after now,
It is inconceivable for you
To remain just that.

Author notes

This is an expression of current things on my mind. I just recently ended a five month relationship with one friend. We have gone back to being just friends again. Another friend, that I learned earlier this year has been attracted to me since my freshman year, has been a huge help to me and is still attracted to me. Before I started going out with the other friend, I knew I was attracted to him. We spent an evening together that brought all this out into the open. And now I puzzle over what to do...and whether or not to let him know this is here.

I guess you might not have wanted to know all that, but there it is. Read, enjoy, don't enjoy, comment. I only ask that criticisms be kept focused on the writing. Thank you.

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  • the evil angel
    January 24

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    At first I couldn't understand what in the world this was about, but half way through it was made pretty clear. Well done here. This is so pure and innocent.

    This is completely honest and I find that deeply increases my interest. You shouldn't worry about what others think. Because if you think you're ready to move on then you are. The first stanza is kind of awkward. It's really the second and third lines that get to me because they really don't make much sense together.

    But other than that, this is the most honest write I've read from you so far. I really like this. Well done.


  • xwarriorXprincessx
    July 25, 2008

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    i wouldn't be critical, only supportive....

    but i will honor your wishes, dear.

    this is a sweet write. it felt so innocent and clean. i love that the mood of the poem changed with the emotions congruent with the subject of your affection (or recent discovery of lack thereof)...

    most times i like chaos, but i like this for its focus. it's straightforward and direct. I understood exactly what you were trying to say... that is a good thing.

    best wishes and good luck