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On Being Bipolar

My thoughts fly like an arrow to a target.
But the target keeps moving.
The only memories I have are long term,
That is if I am paying attention in the first place.
Emotions float up and down as a child's seesaw in the park.
Having this illness is not my desire, it is my curse.

People say this is an illness to fear.
But I believe that being normal would be a worse curse.

Some people say I'm crazy for the dark thoughts I have
But this is a part of me.
And you know,
God doesn't give you more than you can chew.

 

@GGG 2008

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  • kareneisenlord gold member
    November 15, 2008
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    Thank you for giving your permission to post this in our disability group forum.

    I am copying and pasting it here from my messages to have it accessible.

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  • kareneisenlord gold member
    November 15, 2008
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  • kareneisenlord gold member
    November 9, 2008

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    Interesting Perspective!

    That first line seems to describe the condition well;


    "My thoughts fly like an arrow to a target.
    But the target keeps moving."

    I didn't know that about memories being mainly long-term ones. That makes me wonder, because although I take everything in like a sponge; my short-term recall is poor, but I recollect almost every detail in the long term. Something like that.

    The dark thoughts are something I try to control; not repress, but channel somehow into a positive, more wholesome outlook. I think it is good to write about our dark thoughts to release, understand and expell them though. That to me is very therapeutic.

    You cannot deny that side to you. Otherwise it comes up behind you to bite a big chunk out of you. Balance has always been a key for me. I am not officially diagnosed with bipolar, but I have been told I have a "little bit of everything". I try to integrate.

    Thank you for your entry. It was fascinating to read. Yes, our conditions are all a part of what we are. I am glad you accept yourself!

    The last line about God never giving us more than we can chew. I have always believed that, but I wonder sometimes!


  • endless-lover silver member
    October 7, 2008

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    My thoughts fly like an arrow to a target.
    But the target keeps moving.


    loved it much

    and the very last line as well,

    as much as i hate to addmit it that is very true it feels like he dose a lot but truth he will not. great work once again hun,

    vanna

  • AngelOfDarkness88
    August 28, 2008

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    Very personal....great write...hits close to home for me...thank you for entering and best of luck...


  • Fritz O skennick gold member
    July 30, 2008

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    Love this too...

    Deep, dark & very visual...
    My own motto is 'Embrace thine inner darkness, fore thy creativity doth dwell'eth therein'
    And I've gotta say 'Way to channel your darkness, you weild it well'
    Well penned, well versed, well done!!!

  • jadeangyal
    July 14, 2008

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    This is a wonderful way to communicate to other people what bipolar is like. You last two lines are wonderful; they give hope.

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