[ I stand here bare, unclothed ]

I stand here bare, unclothed
Looking at my frail figure in the mirror
I cant get myself to focus
I cant get my thoughts to clear

I steady myself head over the tiolet
As I slowly rid myself of the meal
At first it was hard to hide
But as time passed it got easy to conceal

I want so bad to be beautiful
I want to get copliments and stares
But when I do this to myself
I can literally pull out clumps of hair

It just makes me feel so pretty
And I want to show off my body
I like being the girl with the model frame
I love being called a hottie

I know everyone thinks im perfect
At just how much I weigh
I know they think I have a problem
Cuz I hear every word they say

But why cant they just accept it
And see this is the real me
I want them to keep pretending
Like what im doing they cant see

So I'll tell them im ok
That Ive stopped that aweful habbit
I'll pretend Im eating well and keeping it down
And they will beleive that ive quit

I know they only want whats best
But I just cant become a cow
Even if they think Ive stoped
I'll purge again somehow