Trust Me, Trust You

Look at me, look at you.
Somehow so perfectly terrible.
Somehow so perfect, respectivly.
Or maybe your the terrible one who I have to be
Dumbed down for.
Anyway the truth lies, this is the best thing that I've
Ever experienced.
Someone so awesome is the what I see you as.
Maybe that's just the lie I keep telling myself,
And everyone else to avoid the truth
That no matter how much I say that I trust you,
It's just in my nature to not trust anyone.
Maybe I like the fact that you won't change for anyone,
Not even yourself.
All I know is that you're awesome, and I'm not.
I will never know how you can stand me
Changing all the time.
There's just so much going on right now,
I don't even know what is real and what is in my mind,
My totally messed up mind.
I think I want to just run away from my mind
Dive deep into your magical truth,
Even if that means finally finding out that
All of my suspicions were correct.
I just want the truth,
Or maybe I've had the truth all along.
Maybe you really never will leave me.
I guess this is my apology for being such an
Untrustful, untrushworthy person.
My only hope is that I will still have the best thing that has ever happened to me.