Dear Cindy,

Hey I have a lot on my mind right now, so I thought I should vent, and who better to vent to than the source? So yeah...I've never really been the type to actually miss someone. I have been away from family, who should be rather important to me, for months, even years at a time, and I wouldn't have ever even thought about them. But it's only been a week or so and it already feels like eons. Our conversation is usually what puts me to sleep. You're seriously like Nyquil...It's like I've become Dependant. I'm so over analytical. I'm usually the calm collected, I don't give a fuck type, about everything except you, and the sad part is that I totally trust you, so I stress for no reason. Before we went out,which is this whole school year, we went out, but never acted like a couple, passion-wise.
At least I get to talk to you. After long chats of smiles and petty arguments I can fall asleep right away...I haven't talked to you tonight however. I'm not sure what I would do if we couldn't talk at all. I would probably smoke myself stupid. After all the crap I have been through with relationships with unbearable obstacles. Finally finding something that just seems so easy, and having it suddenly taken away like this. How do I adjust? It's like I have to learn how to relive for the short time we have to be apart.

I've tried to explain hugging you, and being together, but it's beyond my explanation. "You just fit" I hope you truly know what that means to me when I attempt. If you don't know, then you won't ever since I probably won't even mail this. Because this is kinda weird...lol. But if you do happen to receive this then I want you to know that I love you, and I'm waiting for you. But I have summer school in the morning, so I'm going to try to sleep now. I don't know what I'm going to do for the month that's left, I really can't wait until you get back. I miss you.

With love,

Josh