Turning the Pages of Life

as i turn behind to the first pages of my life
everything seems like a soft dream
which once i had seen like an innocent
thinking they would stay forever with me
i had thought to live happily forever in them
for i had no idea that they were all momentous
i had even been a smiling singing soul
who was ever so happening,caring n loving
i was just begining to see the real world
i was realizing LOVE...and FALLING IN LOVE

as i keep turning forward the pages of my life
at this point you had entered into my life
each day with you had its own unique fragrance
that settled in our every breath...atleast mine
they were always so beautiful to us..isnt it???
they are still for me but wonder if they are for you
being with you were my most special moments
with laughter that enrolled from you to me
the way i liked everything about anything you did
i was loving to live.....I WAS LOVING YOU

but as i turn to the pages of MY TODAYS LIFE
you are not with me.....i am alone in this deadly world
my loves gone...leaving me in immense pain i cant bear
is it you who is to blame?or is it my own fate
as i see my poor self i find dreams all scattered around
and me looking at them with thirsty and greedy eyes
people dont wanna see me.....have i become a stray corpse????
i have started to hate my face....i rather dont wanna see it
your memories hurt me as they come with my breath
I am beginning to DIE.....DIE IN YOUR MEMORIES

BEFORE I TURN TO THE VERY LAST PAGE OF MY LIFE
i need you to know that i STILL LOVE YOU.........
no matter what you have done with me