Chaotic In A Noticable Disguise

I'm thinking of just wishing
Wishing it all away today...
I'm thinking of just giving up
Throwing it all away.
I'm thinking I should stop
Before I go insane...
I'm thinking of a memory
That could have cured my pain.
I'm thinking of a life
A life so far behind...
I'm thinking of mistakes
And how I could rewind.
I'm thinking of a person
A person with no face...
I'm thinking of a family
That seemed to be misplaced.
I'm thinking of a poem
That could say it all...
I'm thinking of a potion
That could save my fall.
I'm thinking of a move
To escape all this shit...
I'm thinking I should stay
And face all of this.
I'm thinking of what I want
And what I dream about...
I'm thinking of the smiles
and I'm thinking of the doubt.
I think I shouldn't think
Before I go insane...
I'm thinking I should stop
And quit this horrid game.
I'm thinking of my death
And all the lack of pain...
I'm thinking of my burial
I'm thinking of the rain.
I'm thinking of your face
The day my body's found...
I'm thinking of the tears
From faces all around.
I'm thinking of just wishing
Wishing it all away today...
I'm thinking I should stop
Before I go insane.