My end

I'd rather of had no one than someone.
 
You fucked with my heart slowly working your way to the end until it fell apart. Pain is all I've gained, now just to live in vain id rather have a bullet in my bloody brain. To experience this specific happiness and have it taken away is fucked in so many ways. Honestly everything you say is like bullets to the chest and each time you say sorry leaves me out of breath.The fact that I still love you is a mystery that brings me complete fucking misery. You said you never ment for this to happen fuck what else is there to say but fuck it were only human... Seeing you made me realize a part of me died and inside my mind I had to break open a peace of me for me just to smile and walk by and try my fucking best not to fucking cry.I'd contemplated being your friend but you'd leave to go to college and the fact it would be the same its still the end. I just want to grab you and yell prey to god everything you love goes to hell. Burn with in the candle light be out side with the moon so bright fade with the darkness of the night. I don't need you to live I just wanted to be with you every step along the way saying and wanting to be independent is repugnant it sickens me to hear you say it. Now with this final poemI leave you with goodbye my baby Chero.