Prices for "I love you"s
Messages so unclear
One minute you love me-
And the next, we are here
Apparently charming...
"Friendly" is what they say...
But I know you different,
I know your violent ways.
When you stand here,
In my doorway tonight,
I know what you want,
And I know I can't fight.
Come closer, step-father
So I can see your angry eyes.
Scream at me, father,
Tell me all these lies.
Yell at me, Daddy.
Tell me that I'm bad.
Tell me that it's all my fault
That my mother is so sad.
Swing punches at me.
I'll feel the pain you have.
My ribs are breaking
Because of this wrath.
I'll go to the hospital,
Say "I fell down the stairs"
They wont question me...
Nobody ever cares.
I'll come home to you, Daddy,
So you can beat me more.
Call me a slut,
A filthy, dirty whore.
Then ask me for money,
From doing what I do,
And if I don't have any
I know to run from you.
Why do you hurt me, Dad?
Why doesn't Mommy care?
Why do you kick so hard?
Why does she just stare?
But this is my family...
And I love you both, so;
I promise I wont tell,
No one will ever know.
Author notes
I wrote this when I was 12. I found it in an old journal, made some spelling corrections, and wrote it on here.
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