Occasionally he winked at me, joked with me, and somewhat embarrassed me in public, or in front of family or friends. I was enchanted by this man, but even moreso he was a new person to love and open up to. Essentially, I was so enthralled by him he left me desensitized to my own thoughts and emotions, because I was always wondering about his. It got to the point that I could only laugh and not joke back for fear I would corrupt his feelings.
"I had evil on my tongue, but I swallowed it"
