Humbled

You took my liberty away from me
I was frozen & stayed still
Paralyzed the feeling within me
Behind a wall my mind lay ill

I needed you to be tender
Caress the bleeding in my heart
I wanted love, you abandoned me
Instead of love you chilled my heart

Your embrace I could not open to
Although I longed to from the start
The need I had was irrelevant
You only saw your need in part

No fullness can be in such a stance
You’ve a shield & now I've mine
With such a wall we’ve not got a chance
These walls must come apart in time

I pray I may yet find a time
When I've my freedom back again
My heart is longing to find warm embrace
A love fulfilled where I can mend

It's not just happenstance that we’ve met
For you've the knowledge of my pain
I've prayed for healing of a lonely past
I need the warmth of Sun, not rain

I often wonder when the time will come
When I am freed of bondage deep
I need unravel the fears I've kept
I need to search within & weep

Oh Father please, I want to take to flight
On eagles wings I long to soar
Release me from this inner plight
Take this tiger that does roar
This pain it eats the strength away from me
That I’d use to praise Your name
With You alone I have the victory
With you alone my soul will reign

Words & Music: K.Botka
2/18/05