the anniversary has passed
and the pain is the same
and maybe I am dwelling
and causing this insane
fear that keeps appearing
in my mind
that she will be the one
I lose next time
for we live to die
and we gain to lose
and eventually everyone
you love leaves you
and I am a daddy's girl
but I am my mothers baby
and losing them both
would truly set me crazy
but in the wake of his death
my mind can not rest
will she be
the one I lose next
the one I lose next
the one I lose next
the one I lose next
JayLynn
Copyright 2004 All Rights Reserved
Author notes
Losing my father has paralyzed my life for a year and I still don't seem to know how to move. Losing my mother would kill me. And I try not to acknowledge it or speak it but that fear is real. It has always been there since I was a little kid. But it had slowly gone away and now, since last year, it's been there taunting me. I'm a Daddy's girl but I'm my mommys baby...
Written January 5th, 2004
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I can really relate. I am a daddy's girl too.
But, not that I would wish death to my mother, I just am not as close to her. We are more like sisters and constantly argue. But I have to say losing her would be unimaginable. She leaves too much of an impression.
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I can understand how you feel as I lost my Daddy two years ago and still miss him so much, I am caring for my Mom and often wonder how long it will be before she passes on. You have done a great job expressing your feelings here.I wish I could advise you as to what to do, but it is just something we have to deal with and make the best of what time we have.God Bless!
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Oh my, this poem is touching. I can feel your pain and loss of grounding in this piece. I haven't lost anyone very close to me yet, but I wonder about it all the time. This touched that place in me that wonders how I would survive such a loss... Wonderful, thank you for sharing this. I enjoyed the flow as well, and the repetition at the end gave it added power. Write on!
~peace & pride~
Rachel -
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This is a beautiful poem. I understand how it feels to lose a parent and how you wonder about what will happen next.
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