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do you know that i cant sleep anymore
i dread those lonely nights
that i cry myself to sleep
those nights haunted with
unsettling dreams
and hours staring at my ceiling
i bite my nails more now
i don't care what i look like
i've built walls up
determined to let no one else in

yet i still wanted you

to come knock them down
and you don't even care
you said "friends"
that gave me hope
i tried talking to you
all you did was give me shit
about rumors i didn't start
or other girls you want to date
i wish i wanted you out of my life
i wish i could forget about you
i don't want to remember
but i do,
i remember every lie i believed
every kiss, every touch
every i love you
i keep going back to you
and you treat me like dirt
yet i cant let you go
i keep coming back for more
and i keep getting hurt