I Was Thinking

I was thinking,
it was twilight outside
and dark in my room,
but my thoughts were vibrant and bright.
They were running at full speed
I was considering all things;
my life and my past,
my house and my home,
those that love me,
those that don't,
why I am here
and where I want to go,
but I stopped when I got here.
I couldn't stop the blow
of what I was doing
and who I was being.
My life seems pointless
and my purpose..doesn't seem worth seeing.
But then I started beleiving,
beleiving in myself,
beleiving that I could help
and be someone with reason.
One that doesn't have a season,
one that lasts a lifetime
and doesn't have a border line.
But now it is dark
and soon I must go
because it is getting mellow.
I hope this was easy enough to apprehend
but this is the undividing end.