Abiding Love

the day you died my life shatter to shreds I could not believe
you would no longer return to our home it seems to be a night mare

only that is was harsh bright brilliant day light shinning down upon me
my tummy dropped to the floor of my soul there no bringing it back up

even when I picked out your clothes it seems so surreal like it could not be true
yet it was so very true the day of your funeral lives so vivid in my mind

you thought you had not touched many lives this was so not true, the ones you touched came to say good bye to you, they spoke so highly of you

i visited your grave often shedding more tears i miss your words of wisdom so deeply i wish it was me I think you could of handle it much better

sleeps no longer comes to me at night I miss you so very much,we laid close to one another the world felt so  safe and happy, i miss our weekends when we spent our time together it felt so very good to next to you

now it my time to fall apart and miss you with all that I am inside my body, some how  I must find the courage to live again, it so much harder with out you

there were so many things we left unsaid between us, i wished we would of taken the time to say them, i wished I would of appreciated you so much more, why did I let the little stupid things get in the way of our love, lessons learned to late

in my heart I wonder how am I to go on with out your presence in my life deep down I do not know how, now it my time to mourn all they we lost on this earth, life shall tread on down the road of life i have no plan this time, i am going to let it be what it is to be, my heart shall be one with you, the one lesson that you have taught me turned out to be the best gift now I know what true deep abiding love really does happen to us plain ordinary people