Can you.

can i still be what i want to be
just like you said i always could
i stuck by your side, listening to you
always in wonder over the world

can you still take care of me
because you said that was number one
now that i can't find you
am i still just as much fun

can i still be your writer
or do you even read my song
my words are always written for you
even now that you're gone

can i still be your only one
the one that makes you alive
you always said i was the blood in your veins
and that i'd be the one to survive

can i still be in love with you
even though i've caused you pain
if i had known what i know now
i'd never go back there again

can i still call you on the phone
just to hear your voice
i'm dialing here against my will
i don't think you've got the choice

can you still pick up the phone
when you see that it's me there
do you think that you can forgive me
and tell me that you don't care

can you wrap your fingers around my throat
and hold it as tight as you've got
wait for my eyes to roll back for good
and wait for my breathing to stop

can you still fuck me without my consent
or are you done with that rhythmic dance
the screaming, the crying, the shouting your name
or would you if given the chance

can you find me again inside your heart
under the deepest and darkest of hate
until you can see me in that light
here is where i will wait