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so many questions
regarding to that night
the questions will remain unanswered
and i stay and fight

Why me?
did you even know my name?
or did i just look like the kind of girl
that would like to be in pain?

are you fucking deaf,
did you not hear me beg and scream?
or did that just bring perfection
to you fucked-up twisted dream?

Do you even care
about the pain you've cost?
Do you even know 
how many things i've lost?

I was innocent before you pulled me in your car
and started doing all those things.
In two hours you managed to scar me for life
and steal my angel wings

Do you know how many bottles of vodka
i chugged down
Yet still i wear your mark
like a disgusting crown

So let me tell you
just what you turned me into
All the things that i now need
simply to forget you

No more make-up
i powder me nose with cocaine
I fucking love it when i'm high
coz then i feel no pain

I focus on my body
control every calorie and every Little bite
It's a life-style that i hate
But that blocks out that one night

Scared to death to fall asleep
and re-live that night again
Cos you visit me in nightmares
like a demon sandman

Scars now flaunt my body
like sick,delicate tattoos
all of this because of you
and all the other abuse

Your image hunts me every hour
of every fucking day
and i've tried everything
to make it go away

For 3 years now
you've been stalking me
Your body may not be here
but your face is all i see