Forgotten Harness

The mountain dwarfed me
As I glared so high,
But I made a promise and
I would climb into the sky.

The memories, the regrets;
I caused more havoc than a cyclone,
They attacked me like vultures
Who wouldn't leave me alone.

My fingers cut as I climbed ever higher
But I was putting my past behind me.
And if I should reach this monstrous summit,
I pray the light won't blind me
Again
My mind became clouded by a recurring dream,
The man who died by my hand.
The mountain tried to shrug me off
But I begged it to understand.

There had been no plan for this devlish act,
Yet I killed him as if I meant it.
I cried for a thousand days, I did,
And lord knows I repent it.

The clouds exploded
And I raced ever higher

I dragged my broken body
Over the final hurdle,
Only to find I was not alone.

A man stood watching me
And I opened my mouth to speak,
But he simply shook his head
And I staggered backwards as if shot dead.

An unseemly trance consumed my body,
Heaving me out of the driving seat.
A cumbersome conscience cooled my mind
Until the switch flipped completely.
I fell.

My footing was lost and I was gathering speed,
Helpless to hang on to hope.

I reached my terminal velocity
As my mind snapped back into place.
Jaw dropped open; Eyes spread wide,
The abyss into which I was heading
Made no attempt to hide.

I didn't crash,
I never crashed
I simply kept on falling,
Coal Blackness consuming all of my senses.

Slowly, my eyes drew shut