She's looking at me
With those pretty
Blue eyes
Tear drops falling
Tear drops fading
She looks so beautiful
To me
She's so important
I want her to feel
So much better
Than
The way she feels now
I want to make her
Feel good
What have I become
What am I right now
So disturbing
So disgusting
And yet, she's so
pure
"Are you Ok?"
she opens that little
mouth
So innocent
So sick in my mind
Such purity
To me
And yet I find myself speechless
No words will leave my lips
Nothing to reach out unto her
Until I say,
"Are you?"
I've never seen such
a pretty face
I've never seen
such disgrace
I've never seen
such tears
She's melting into me
"No"
she gasps, her face so red
I want to speak
But stay quiet instead
I want to tell her
That she'll be fine
But I cannot
Let myself lie
Cause I don't know
No, I don't know
"Want to talk?"
I ask, with fear
"Yes"
she says to me
Explaining
Pouring her little
Heart out
"My mother's dead
My father hate me
My brothers ran
He tried... he tried..."
She was silent
But I knew
I knew enough
To understand
I am a predator
A man of Nineteen
I am like her
And her father like me
I hate who I am
She'd hate me too
But I understand
If only she knew
And she's a pretty girl
A torn kid-sex-toy
That made herself human
For this mocking-bird-boy
That sat on a park bench
Reading about demons and kids
Who saved a stupid predator
From the demon inside him
"Don't worry,"
I whispered
Not sure how to go on
"I swear I won't hurt you"
I promised
I swore
And she looked up at me
Wiping the tears from
Her eyes
And in a raspy voice
Said
"I'll be
All right."
Author notes
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