When Can I Change Back?

Never

Never

Never have I gone to the ocean

Never have I wrote a poem

Never have I sat in a tree

Never have I had a eaten HALF a bowl of ice cream

Never have I looked at myself in a happy way

Never had I laid in bed

Never with a man

Always waiting

Waiting for the time

I always had morals

Always had values
 
Then the eating stops

    When the pounds came off so did the morals

    Slowly, surly I became a different person

    A new friend to show me the way

    Just for fun and entertainment

    I don’t want her to get hurt, I would say

    Sometimes chocolate then to the gym

    It was ten, so fifteen to burn

    Counting counting always counting

    My friends they worried but the thrill I needed

    Smaller smaller cant be ever bigger.

    I was told to continue but in a healthy way

    By a higher power more informed then I

    So I set to work, I had it….

    For four weeks--it died

    Now my life is busy

    Work and school, and play

    One that is taken wants to be with me.

    He came to see me once, twice, and some more

    I love the thrill

    My friends say no, stop

    They think I’ve lost it all

    They don’t know who I am anymore

    When did I leave my path?

    I lost it long ago

    Can I Change?

    It all feels gone

    Every ounce of who I am

    When will it return

    I’m slipping