I am afraid to sleep..
I can hear the hum
of the ceiling fan,
echoing my husbands snore,
the crickets chirping
outside my window,
begging me to just
close my eyes.
seconds pass,
that turn to hours,
and still I lay here.
I wonder if you can die
from lack of sleep,
or from the nightmares that
creep in,
when you finally give way,
to Mr. Sandman.
I watch the blinking
of the answering machine,
with all it's messages.
( 31 to be exact )
still, the fear of what
may come,
when I slumber
bids me to stay,
wided eyed.
I think maybe,
just for tonight,
I will not sleep..
maybe I will just wait,
and sleep tomorrow.
I am sure that my nightmare
can wait till then.
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ehhhhh , not good. just me, being afraid to go to sleep.. probably should take my meds, but I dont want too.. so instead, I wrote a crappy poem..
Please tell me what you think
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True to life
I don't think it's crappy at all. It's good because it's something a lot of people can relate to. I won't even lie - I'm 23 years old and sometimes I'm afraid to fall asleep. I have nightmares about the day I came home to find my mother dying, and I wasn't able to save her. I have nightmares about work, about losing even more people that are close to me ... sometimes staying awake isn't as awful as sleeping and experiencing all that. I think you captured that feeling really well.
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thank you.. I am a sexual abuse survivor..so I have lots of nightmares about it..sometimes I am afaid to go to sleep. I have sleep meds, but I really hate taking them. Plus I had session today. It always make me feel raw and a little afraid..
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