No Tears Fall

Oh the confusion,
the frustration
of all that I am...

The rain falls fast,
drenching me in grief
and all I want,
all I need,

Is peace and quiet.

As my heart slowly betrays me,
I look into his eyes,
and can't help but smile,
even when I know how wrong I am.

He speaks sweet, soothing words,
his English accent taking over,
and I forget everything,
leave it all behind.

As I think back to the one at home,
I know I've confused myself,
and I hear my parent's voices,
telling me it's ok to give in.

Yes, give in.

I search through the trees,
for just a glimpse
of everything that is sweet.

I feel th tears of frustration
swelling into my clothes,
as I try to hide my thoughts.

I hate to cry,
I hate to think,
but with each waking moment,
I miss home more and more.

As I take my rest,
to put me back into place,
I long for a hug,
from anyone but him.

I know I will lose it,
I can feel it right now,
but I'm fighting,
fighting to stay together,

Because once one tear falls,
it's all over.