I can’t look at you.
You said it again.
Hot saltwater stings my cheeks;
I make out I’m stifling a sneeze.
All so you won’t see,
Won’t hear, won’t know.
Your babble continues,
Your plans laid out in your
Excitement, your wish
To share them with me –
Because that’s what friends do, isn’t it?
You talk, and talk,
And punch the buttons,
Your nettlingly beautiful smile
Grows as you hear her voice
On the other side of the world.
I’m forgotten, for a moment.
Turning, busying myself with
Nonsense, my insides scream
Outward in silent slashes,
Burning, breaking imagined glass
Into shards turned in on me,
Anything to mask this rage,
This dive, this plunge into
“I love you, you know?”
Yes, you love me, I know.
Years of joshing, teasing,
messing, watching our lives
Change, diverge, meander, rejoin
To this – what we are now.
Friends.
And that’s good, I still have you,
Can still hold you when you need it,
Call you when I need to,
Drink you in when the world pushes back.
But I can’t look at you.
You said it again.
Yes, you love me, I know.
The perfect parody of banshee rage
Inside me as I hear your words
But they’re not what I want;
Not these, not with the
Brisk hug and shove
Of mates,
But those,
That she gets, the one across the world;
To have part of you is not
Better than none at all,
They lie.
Author notes
tarcus hon, just in case it's not clear, this one's for envy 
A contest entry
- SEVEN DEADLY SINS by tarcus.
777 points, ended November 22, 2008, 9 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
floats your boat, or scuttles it? let me know....
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raaaaaaaaach.
i almost don't get it.
you ok bubbaloo?
msg me, i miss you.
p.s it's a very pretty poem, me like
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heeeeyyyy
(said Fonzie style)
I'm good, you know me
And I know, it's been effin ages. *makes mental note to self to not forget people, not that she could forget the Nemmers mentalist* xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Your nettlingly beautiful smile,
what a quaint term of endearment perhaps may be better with just nettling
Gives it that bit more bite;
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you're not valid enough to give any kind of poor critique on this, not to MY Rachel. go back where you came from.
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it's ok....
...tarcus is actually a decent dude, be nice And you know me and my wordiness...having said that, I won't edit for less that £10k, so unless it's really, REALLY important to someone, or I've committed a genuine faux pas, it ain't getting edited heheheh
x
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