Alone in Lament

Sit down right there
This could take awhile
As I return your blank stare
Further exposing my denial
And now that I have your attention
Where do I begin?
I pray for your retention
As we plummet deep within
My grieving heart

Hold on to your seat

I speak softly
Reminiscing of the past
Of how I wish this could still work
But I realize grimly
In these shadows cast
All that is left of this is hurt
I admit to a love still there
Buried away so deep
In hopes that you still care
This time, I want to play for keeps

Then openly, I weep

I watch your eyes
As they dance around the subject
Do you even realize
This poison that you inject
Still coursing through my vessels
That my body can’t reject
Oh how it corrupts
As thoughts cook and fry
And my brain erupts
I just want to curl up and die

Wallowing in my defeat

But I’m stuck with these thoughts
That won’t go away
Laced with bouquets of forget-me-nots
Reminding me every day
Of these torments to the heart
Mutating it into cold stone
Until these iniquities depart
I can’t leave well enough alone
When finally, I crack and fall apart

Leaving ruins and rubble of self-deceit

You’re in everything I see
No matter where I turn
Making it harder for me
For it only causes me to yearn
In the air I breathe
And things that I eat
That blasphemes what I believe
Rendering me incomplete

I slowly rise to my feet

I sincerely hope
This wasn’t to your detriment
As my knotting throat chokes
Finishing my aching lament
That was totally biased and unfair
With all these emotions provoked
Aggravated thoughts now shown
Lost in the moment and completely unaware
Realizing that I bewail alone
My tears fall on an empty chair