Foolsmate

I thought it would be great, thought I found my mate
But I was just her maid in the shade now I’m jaded
More than I have ever been
What’s gonna happen, will it happen again
Better leave now but I don’t know how
‘Cause I love her so but she doesn’t show
And she’s super slow at making anything happen
She’s a deceiver, wish I could believe her
But she won’t change or even rearrange her life
I better leave now before I make a vow yea but how
Do I do it, can I go through It, seems like I knew it
Would happen this way
So for now I’ll drink and try not to think
And I’ll hold on though I know it’s wrong
And I’ll write this song but all along
I know death is near and my only fear
Is that I’ll hurt the ones who love me dear
Yea, sleep angel, sleep and don’t stop to think
How I weep or how I spend my time
Wishing you were really mine
Yea, fuck you ‘cause you don’t care
And you don’t think I’d dare leave this place
Without a trace, you better forget my face
And my perfume and lace or be haunted
Because what you wanted, you certainly taunted
With apathy and abandonment, neglect and disrespect
Maybe it’s too late and  I’ll make a mess
With your .38 once beautiful in my best dress
It’s a fitting way to leave I do believe
And you’ll remember me but you’ll never see me again
As if you’d care, as if you’d care, as if you’d care