Fighting Fate

back to my philosophy
of being alone
I've known it all my life
I'll never be at home
in a world of confusion
I stand on my own
with the depth of understanding
I've always known

to others I seem distant
if only they could see
all that lies within me
and all that I can be
constantly I'm forced to realise
no one will ever know the real me
so I keep it all inside
and suffer silently

sometimes I'm so fragile
and I feel like I need you
but then I'm betrayed once again
and I'm forced to see the truth
but if you could see beyond
these deep eyes, ice blue
maybe you could glimpse my soul
as have so few

I wonder if I'm the only one
the only one who feels this way
but then I remind myself
to focus on today
no matter who wants to love me
I know I'll stay away
because I realise deep inside
I'll always be this way