Why You arn't here today

even though
we weren't as close as I wished
you were still a big part of me
a part that can never be replaced
you left a mark
that changed my life forever

I will never pick up a cigarette
for as long as I live
I can't even stand to watch someone
Burning their life away
it makes me want to cry
when I see it
I just want to take it from their hands
then throw it on the ground and remind then
of what they are doing
but I don't
because I know it won't stoop them

Instead I reminisce
about the times that we spent together
and then it is like you are still by my side
but when I look over
realty hits and you aren't there

Now every October 4th is the day
the day that we remember you
and we remember how great you were
but we also remember
the reason why
you aren't here today
and that it was all because of and addiction
that lead to cancer
that then killed you
and that is the reason
why you aren't here today