It's so sad

It's so sad
That we all have to go through this
Sitting and waiting
Wanting and knowing


Do we have to cry every night
When no one comes home
Or through that door
Wanting to know more and more

Is she going to be alright
Am I going to make it through the night
With so much pain inside
With the tears running down my face
I feel like a fool
I'm dressed up with disgrace
My heart is beginning to race

She comes in unwilling to speak
I ask her whats wrong
And she kisses me on the cheek
Saying nothing as she goes to bed
I feel so stupid and insecure

She was my mother
So sweet and reliable
The day I turned 15
She was out of my life forever

She died of stroke and a small seizure
I miss her everyday
She was my friend and my teacher
She tought me everything she can
Until she left that day
She didn't come back
She went away

She went away to a special place
To belong in some other way
Which was so secure and safe
She doesn't have to fight or complain
She's in no more pain

I want her back each and every day
Wanting her to answer me
When she isn't here
To give me kisses and hugs
To say I love you once more

And which I feel so bad
I didn't get to say goodbye
And I love her
She already knew anyways
When she went on her way

It's so sad isn't it
Telling me it'll be alright
You held it in so tight
It's so sad to see me like this
I haven't been the same
Since my first incident

Crying and wanting it to be the same
Sometimes I feel like I'm going insane
It'll never return to normal
Losing my head
Trying to think of what to do next

It's so sad to see her go
I want to her back
But there's no way no how
It's so sad to hear me complaining
I want this and that
But forgive me
For I have sinned my whole life
And I will never change that
Even with that knife

She held on as long she could
Trying to understand
How much she would
Her pain is gone
But mine is still here
I feel with regret
And with every tear

Sadness never fades
But I'm stronger than you think
I'm getting better each and every day