The blood that stains my hands
is a different kind than yours
Ever dripping, ever staining,
the flow will never end
Your blade is raised to save the innocents
those my blade would find and end
if it wasn't for you
I wasn't told to find you, to fight you
wasn't ordered to kill, not this time
Perhaps that is the only reason I stay my sword
I want to tell myself it's the human in me
but I doubt that, unable to believe the sweet lie
There is no more humanity in me
I exchanged it for power, then burned it away
Maybe it was emotion that prompted me here
residual feelings that keep my eyes narrowed
as I see his blood on your blade, on your hands
Yet you didn't wish for it to be this way
you only stood in front of him, protecting your nakama
rescuing the ones you hold dear
And though no one came for me
I can't hold that against you
For the only one I would want to miss me
is already in my arms
bleeding from the cuts you gave
from the battle he prepared for,
he wanted this fight
At least he is still alive
I tell myself that is why I stop
that I leave you breathing
only as long as he continues to live
but I know this is a lie as well
I can no longer raise my blade against you
against the look I wish still showed in my eyes
I know I'd just be attacking myself


I haven't read your work in a while and everytime I logged in there your poem was glaring at me.

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