As I sit again at dawn
longing for sleep and my bed
I wonder why I keep doing this
over and over again
I give more than I can afford to
physically, emotionally, spiritually
until I am covered in footprints
and only a sad husk of who I should be
I love more deeply than I should
I help the people who won't help themselves
I put up with lies, thieves, and users
and end up surprised when they use me again
I ache to be happy
I long to be loved in return
I am tired, and lonely
and I sadly realize all of it
is self-inflicted...
Author notes
self inflicted...prompt
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Comments
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this is sadly true for many live. being so helpful it becomes unhelpful is a tragic thing but so true. this is a beautiful poem and I really love the wording "covered in footprints" being walked all over until you can't walk yourself... a truly touching and emotional write.
thank you for your entry
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"I give more than I can afford to physically, emotionally, spiritually until I am covered in footprints and only a sad husk of who I should be" i liked that part. Very well written and i liked it alot.Thanks for entering my contest i wish you the best of luck. Shelly
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This is a really amazing poem. I don't know to much about anything really but I do know what this feels like. I am also one that loves even when being used. Thank you so much for your entry and good luck!
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"I wonder why I keep doing this
over and over again"
So simply expressed...but this seems to be everybody's autobiography. Why do we do things we know are bad for us, and keep doing them?
"until I am covered in footprints
and only a sad husk of who I should be"
Liked these 2 lines. Feels genuine.
There should be a hyphen (-) between 'self' and 'inflicted'...please change that in your last line.
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Hell this is the story of my life... How can I not tell you how perfectly accurate your imagery is...??? Honestly emotive... like thereapy ~


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awwwwww
i hope you are okay 
this is wonderful and emotional
great wrie and good luck in the contest
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Thank you
I will be ok I have a couple really close friends who are there to support me no matter what! Eventually I will make it right, and I hope... -
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yes, we all should hope
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wow true emotion so powerful. you deserve better! but only you can stop the flow of traffic stepping all over you by not just laying there and taking it. stand up don't just lay there. STAND UP! STAND UP FOR YOURSELF! STAND UP GIRL FOR GOD'S SAKE STAND UP!!!


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thank you!
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amazing poem......the words you use and the emotions are so raw and alive.....i've been there myself many times so thank you for putting into words what i couldnt.....hope to read more of your work soon


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