Walk away
Forget me,
I hate you for being happy
While I sit here alone.
Why is it,
People turn to me
Like I'm some sort of guru,
To fix their sorry fuck ups
When I cannot fix my own
I can actually help you
But I cannot help myself
My life is in shambles
And I make yours perfect.
I hate you.
Get away from me.
You make me sick,
Sick of myself.
I forget sometimes
That I have a life of my own
One that was taken
Taken by this bullshit,
Broken by a stone.
Get off your high horse
Fix this mess yourself
I'm tired of being the scapegoat
Too long have I now dealt
With problems that are not mine.
I work to please
So many that do not care
You live your life so careless
Like I'm not even there.
You say you believe in fairness
And reply with evil stares.
I'm so tired of being nothing
While everybody glares.
Go away, just leave
I hate this indifference
I hate just being me
I hate the word hate
I hate sobriety
Why am I to worry
If you are happy where you are?
Why is it I live,
To assist, and not just breathe?
I want to run away,
But I cannot up and leave
I know that if I died
Everyone would grieve
But while I'm alive and well
I'm just another dweeb.
I cannot take a second
To like what I've become
Here alone, repeating
Everything I've done
When I get a chance to change it
I will likely turn and run
There's a voice calling me now
In the barrel of this gun
I don't want to accept this
My fate is far from done
But I can't help but think
It just repeats itself
Like the rolls inside a bun
Avert your eyes and walk away
Don't worry I am numb
I can't feel death coming
Although I welcome him to come
Go... Away...!
I hate you
I cannot get out!
I cannot get away!
I feel this is the ending
Colors are turning gray
I want to leave, I hate this
And you're begging me to stay
God could not have wanted
Me to live this way
He could not have wanted me
To be this way today
I don't see how I make
Any progress in my dismay
Get lost, I'm not your guru
I'm a rope starting to fray
Grasp me if you want to
Have it your own way
Just know that I am weak now
I'm gonna snap one of these days.
Author notes
Had a little bit to drink, but ddaaammnnn did that feel like the truth. I really think this is the way I feel.
So many people come to me for advice, like I make the greatest decisions and live the best kind of life. And I can always make things work for them, yet I keep running this uphill race. I don't know what else to say that I haven't summed up in my poem.
Tell me what you think
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You have a lot to say
Wow. You certainly got a lot off your chest in this poem! It has lots of good points and I think it borders between poem and long confessional. You certainly have talent as a writer. One point to suggest is, if you are going to write long poetry on one theme, be careful of repeating yourself. Otherwise this is fine and I enjoyed the line 'to fix their sorry fuck ups when I cannot fix my own'. I think a lot of people can relate to that. Good luck and keep writing.
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thank you both =)
if by repeating you mean the rhyming off "become" in the 1st stanza and then again in the 12th.. that was intentional, that's why the first one is so short =P if that's not what you mean it would be good to clarify hehe cause I don't see it.. aside from the "hating" everything which is pretty much the essence of the poem.
Thank you very much for your comment.
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This is awesome
You are a good writer you really made me see the big picture of my life now I most loved these lines.........I can actually help you but i cannot help myself My life is shambles and i make yours perfect
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