Oh god I can’t believe this is happening
My chest is tightening and I can’t catch my breath
Every movement is sending warning messages to my mind
If I push it to the side it’ll go away
It won’t exist
Oh god I don’t wanna believe
This story that is being written on the blank sheets in front of me
My hand is holding the pen
I can make it go where I want it to go…but I don’t
Every moment that is spent without pain
My mind is focusing for it to come
Worried about all of this coming to a stop
Cause I’m not what you thought I’d be
When you took the clay from the ground
And shaped me to be somebody I never turn out to be
Oh god I don’t see me seeing this in a year from now
My foot prints I’ve made in snow will melt away
Everything I’ve learned will leave me upon departure
If it’s going to be like this
I only pray I doesn’t hurt me like it will them
And when I stand alone in front of the courts
Show me mercy…I knew better…but didn’t change
Cause I’m not strong enough
Cause I’m not good enough to move past this
I can feel there’s something wrong
I always knew there would be
I want to be sympathetic…but I’m not
My chest is tightening and I can’t catch my breath
Growing up feeling invisible
I never thought this is how it would end
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