A Toast to being lazy

Sometimes all people want in life is to relax
to take a load off things- things that they never did,
or will do.

But with my case it's a different type of lazy.
I see a girl, and I think she's beautiful, wonderful,
and imagine that she could be my type of girl.
But I turn my head, and I say to myself, "Don't bother".
I could never imagine myself in a relationship,
just because I'm too lazy to go after anyone.
I'll be that 70 year old virgin, and I couldn't care less.

I've been through relationships,
and I'm too independent to know how to deal with other people.
I'm quiet, hesitant, confused, and laid back.

It hurts me though, because it somehow kills me inside,
every time i give up someone for the sake of being too lazy.
I'm lonely, and I always wish to be with someone,
but then I remember that I can't, based on my character.

So here I am, giving an imaginary toast
because this is more of a personal toast.
I couldn't say this at a dinner table,
it would be too awkward.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not a negative guy,
I'm not optimistic either.
I base what I say on reality.

So what about this toast anyway?
What's the point of it?
I ask myself everyday, why I'm too lazy.
I don't know, I just am.
I try not to worry about it....

If only I was too lazy to think.