What you won't Understand

(Writing about 'You probably think this means I give up on you,
The saddest part is this is why I come.'
Say Anything)


You look at me and you see what you want to see.
The same way that you believe what you want to believe
rather you hear it from me or not.
But I haven't forgot and lately you're thinking my actions
should come to a stop
and you make no effort for time and it leaves my heart in knots
but certain things I have managed to forgive but i have
never forgot
but what you fail to see
is that this feelings i have for you just doesn't seem to want to leave.
And I become defeated by the mental.
Helpless and vulnerable.
My heart has nothing but love for us
but this situation got me feeling like that's just not enough
and i tried but i just can't relate to fact that i have now felt that mistrust
is what becomes us.
Feeling like we have nothing left to give
and that the situation is at a standstill
but i can't seem to disengage the fact that i know you brought my heart in for the kill.
And my self respect is laying half stripped on the floor
and you whisper the soothing remedies and the lies that you know i adore
but further more I fall for it.
I can't seem to get it right
mad at myself and the decisions i made in my life
when it comes to you I am blind
but only to a certain extent.
And I am asking for a change or either we just leave this as friends.