Bullet Proof Across My Chest. Bullet in my Head;;

You know I can't help but wonder
What does cause this thunder
You're barging through these rooms
Breaking down the walls and all the doors
Opening up those old wounds
Craving just to make me bleed
You want to see me scream
I know you always hated me
Drew the blade across my flesh
But there isn't anyone there;;
Just me and a rainbow razorblade, slowly fading red
Bloodstains on the carpet, running down the walls;;
Look its like a horror movie slaughter house
With your fingerprints on the door
Name written horrid on the walls
It's like indecision to make a decision
I don't know if you're alive or dead
Coming and going, they say it's all in my head;;
Strapped to this feather filled matress bed
Bandages across damaged wrists, hiding what bled within
Bullet through the skull tears leaking from filmy white eyes
Now I know I won't see you anymore;;
Bullet proof vest across my chest.