A face in the mirror
thin
tired
a shell of who I used to be
Who Am I?
I’m the girl
who tries
desperately
to stay under your radar
I try and I fail
to escape
Your taunts
your teasing
the names and labels
that you attach to my pitiful form
echo
through the halls of this hell
you’ve seen me smile
when I feel like crying
you’ve seen me laugh
when I feel like dying
you call me faker
liar
but my forced smile is the only weapon I have left
against you
you call me goth
for my clothes
you call me emo
for my scars
then turn around
and say
“How can she be emo? She smiles all the time.”
Don’t you know a lie when you see one?
Are you so stupid
that you can’t tell the difference
between real
and fake
when you look it in its smiling face?
I smile
because I have nothing left
no other way to defend myself
I smile
to cling to one last hope
that maybe
there’s something better than this life
So here I am.
standing in front of my bathroom mirror
and for the first time in my life
I like what I see
and I like the fact
that I don’t have to present
one more smile
one more lie
to your cruel, popular aces
again.
Ever.
So watch me smiling
as I hold the gun to my head
and laughing
as I pull the trigger
Author notes
Fictional. Purely Fictional.
Sometimes I scare myself to sleep. Sometimes I wake up screaming.
A contest entry
- Suicide Solution by Blood Magick.
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Comments
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AAAAAAAAAA scary. No guns, please, Mivitha. We like you too much to let you do that. It's a very, very, VERY good poem- don't know how I missed reading it earlier. It's got great word choice and is kind of scary. I wish I could add more applause.
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Wow m&m. you are beyond amazing. i'm tired of trying to come up with words that encompass how good your poems are. you are beyond words. that was...well, i cant think of a good enough word. it was full of emotion and very realistic. thank god its fictional. but wow does it ever sound real.
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I really like this poem a lot it is very powerful and full of emotion. I like it so much that I'm not going to DQ you for not following the rules! You have some talent so I'm glad this is fictional! Thank you for the entry and good luck!
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That was a very interesting poem. I really liked this one. i can really relate to the girl in the poem(minus the suicide of course). Good work i really enjoyed reading it
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