When punishment's the plan

I just don't get it
I don't understand
Why tell me that you love me
When punishments the plan
Expression is worth nothing
With anger at the door
Why wear my heart upon my sleeve
When you need so much more
I spit my anger
Make myself sick
The harshness of my words
You can suck my d**k
Sleep's what I need
The whiskey ain't working
Pain's what I feel
Why bother talking
There is no point to saying
Is not dirty or cheap
Your speaking all nice
But I won't lie at your feet
Drag me down
Then send me away
No more time will I spend
On wordplay
Good and bad
They just don't mean shit
Justify the actions of need
Judge me by the look
Of a thing you'll never know
Never pay the price
Of coming to the show
Will you hold my hand
Until I die
Will you understand
If I won't even try
The world it is beginning
My bullshit never ends
Fuck the things that you believe
Destruction of a friend