i didnt mean it

Of I'll the times I've hurt you,
I didn't mean it.

Of all the times I've attempted to make better
Of what was already bad
And made it worse, just worse...
I didn't mean it

When I hurt you by hurting me
With all the lies I told you to protect you
With all the tears I cried despite you..
I'm sorry. I didn't mean it.
.

Normally I try to fabricate with long words and flow
Now I just want to tell you, all of you,
that I'm sorry

I'm sorry for your heartache
Maybe possibly I think I deserved mine
But I can't help it if I was young and in love

More often than not I have to block out thoughts of you
And all the shitty consequences that you brought
Not only for me...
But for all the other girls in the world
Who were so much better for you...and who hurt because of it.

Because of me.

To the girl who would have not taken you for granted
To the friends who would have done anything to get their friend back
To the innocence and ignorance that I wish I still had

I didn't want to have to learn what it feels like to hurt
                        to hurt yourself
                        to hurt others
That early in life.

I'm sorry I was a shitty person
I'm sorry I didn't know how to deal

I would do it over again if I could
Maybe something good could come out of it
and for all the bad that i've EVER done
i swear i didn't mean it....