Hello.
You are talking to a dead person.
Blood runs through my veins, but my heart isn't really beating
But you see, I am dead....
The death I've succumbed to is a much different kind.
I walk around with the living
I can touch...see...taste...hear-
But I no longer feel...and i can only taste my bitter demise
You look at me and think, "she's alive"
But I'm not.
I've died long ago, and my death is far more painful than the kinds you know
Torture beyond comparison
Pain, Anger, uncontrollable emotions eat away at you Until you wake up one day, and feel nothing but An empty hollowness
That is what I've become...
A hollow soulless carcass, all flesh no heart
Having only the smiles I have taken from others
The dreams an false expectations of others, I make them mine
Because I need a purpose
I am numb
Searching blindly for a way out
Yet I'm only walking in circles
After all you can't see in the dark
Cutting myself on the many shards of my heart
My soul
My life
The withered away pieces, fragments that have been lost so many times
Can never put poor Kim back together again
I have fallen into a abyss of darkness and destruction
Swallowing me whole
Only spitting out the smallest fragment of me that has some how manages to exist
So you see, I am only a piece of the many pieces,lost in the dark
I am beyond saving, there is no way to reverse what happened
No light, no outstretched arm reaching out to pick me up
Only the bittersweet taste of Death....
The sound of him laughing in my face
Because he knows he's won
My Death is a different kind of death
Call it a cancer if you like
One that eats away at you and when you die...
You're still alive Cursed, forced to forever walk among the living.
Author notes
I wrote this a while back, I was really sad, near suicidal an I just kept on writing. I hope you understand.
A contest entry
- give me your pain. by aanika.
525 points, ended July 2, 2008, 13 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - X.x.X-End-This-Life-X.x.X by XxX-Ivy-Love-XxX.
750 points, ended July 25, 2008, 26 entries
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Was it worth reading? What do you think, what are your thoughts? Is there any way i can improve?
Comments
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all i have to say is WOW. and good luck in my contest!
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i do understand.
trust me.
probably more than you know.
very frustrated write, i almost wanted to skip to the end
just to see what you would do with it
and you didn't disappoint.
good luck. -
wow
this was a deep, emotional write, filled with personal pain. i hope you've been able to conquer these trials.
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very nice
this was very nice and quite deep.your lost inside yourself,feeling nothing no more and yet stuck living in a frozen state. to only exsist around the living.when others don't even understand.cancer is vicious.it took my dad at the age of 61, a young man at 31, and many others i know and look at young children that get it.i have my own troubles.my friend says god only gives you what you can handle i said i'm annoyed at god right now he keeps me in th same row boat paddling along with the same problems and adding more. i'm to tired for more don't want more and had enough of what i do have. be brave and try to hold on
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