My deepest darkest secret,
mama if i told you would you even beleive me?
if i could prove it,
would you take the time to see,
the so called love of your life
stole your little girls innocence,
beat her and bruised her,
and made her bleed,
but you were out cold and couldn't hear the screams.
It isnt wrong, being bisexual,
but if i told you my family,
you would accept me,
you would treat me as an outsider,
and maybe disown me,
i didnt just wake up one day and decide this is how i wanted to be,
i cant help who i am,
but you can help me feel safe,
when "we people" walk by i heard the insults you gave.
Cutting and bleeding,
hurting and screaming,
wanting just to end it all,
i hide the blade at the sound of your call,
you cant know,
what would you say?
if you found out that i was this way?
that i hurt myself,
and tried to die because of my pain and no help,
i'll never tell you for you wil never understand,
the thoughts in my mind when the razor's in my hand.
Author notes
1st one is about being molested as a child, 2nd is about me being BI, 3rd is about cutting and being suicidal
A contest entry
- Your deepest darkest secret... by AutumnsFlame.
662 points, ended September 1, 2008, 21 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Dancing with the Scars II by Kathryn Bowden.
600 points, ended July 13, 2008, 9 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Deepest Secrets REAVELED! by Sick Sunshine.
1000 points, ended October 28, 2008, 20 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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you've got issues hun.
but don't we all. Just love yourself and know YOU ARE BETTER. soo much better and worthy than you give yourself credit for. If the people you love, love you then they will accept you no matter what. keep your chin up. thank you for sharing your secrets. -
wow, i really like this poem, i think it shows your emotions well and enjoyed reading it
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Thank you for taking time to enter. This is full of emotion. The flow is a little choppy in places, but overall it reads fairly well. Thanks again and good luck!
Kathryn
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Makes me sad...
I feel your pain Savi
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screw Autumns Flame! go UnityHope!!! very well done Savi! i Really x 900,000,000,000 like this one! 3rd. paragraph explains me. love it.
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you really let the readers inside with this one. I can feel the pain as I read. best wishes in the contest
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savi, savi, savi.!.
story of my life, once again.
very well written with tonnes of emotion and power,
this should be a lettter that you give your mum on her death bed, so she can know with her final few minutes on earth how much you've suffered.
very well done.
♥ Uni
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Wow! That was beautiful! It almost felt like I was there with you!
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autums flame is wrong
i loved it savi lol
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eh... to tell the truth, this seemed very.... teen-angsty. I know you probably didn't mean to do this, but a lot of parts came off as whiny and amateur... My suggestion would be to probably use a metaphor or some describing words... that would really help, especially in a freeverse poem. Thank you for entering my contest.
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