It's taken me three years
To heal these lungs you cursed not to speak
Cause every time I say I want to forget you
I do not want to let you go
And every time I say I never want to write about you
Your the only thing I think of
And every time I say I hate you
I'm actually finally admitting I love
And every time I say we were fiction
I see you were the realest thing I ever had
And I'll always miss you
And I will always love you
I'm moving on
To being me
His beautiful hazel eyes
He makes me weak in the knees
Stutter through breaths
Afraid to let him in
I cannot trust myself enough anymore
To know when I have struck love
And when I've realized too late
And no matter how much time passes
I will never forget
How I realized I love you
It took me so long to see
I was blind to this strange feeling
And I could never admit it
How could you
Knowing you loved me
Push me away
Just because you could already see
I was falling,
I fell in love with you
Author notes
I have no idea if this is what you are looking for. But I defiantly just saw a new part of me just now. I have not written like this in awhile usually I'm clouded by metaphors and personification. But this is strait to the point. In short, I fell in love with a guy that loved me back but was so scared cause we were younger that his solution was to push me away and not talk to me. It took me forever to realize and admit that I really did love him. I am not that kind of person, and I was young. But as I get older I see how real it really was. And I am so scared to care about someone like that again. It was a long time ago though, and I feel like I am finally over it. Although it still makes for great poetry. Sorry that was so long.
A contest entry
- Your deepest darkest secret... by AutumnsFlame.
662 points, ended September 1, 2008, 21 entries
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Comments
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dude we all been there i thank that a lot fo girls can relate nicely done very nice
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this would be wonderful if written in rhyme ... it tells a nice story. best wishes for the contest.
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Since I really like how you expressed yourself here, I will leave a nice comment and say that I'm glad this has all been let out of you and that my contest inspired you. And no need apologizing for the long author's notes--- I like it when poems are explained to me. It's really good to unleash what's inside of you every once in awhile! Thank you for entering my contest.
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