~Forgiveness~

Tears burn trails of woe,
from the corners of my eyes.
My heart heavy with confusion;
the words you sling are stones of pain
propelled directly into the delicate windows of my soul.
Your goal to bruise me, your target hit dead on.

Longing to have what I once shared,
a father who adored you with his whole being.
You, lost in the shuffle of reorganizing life,
left to defend what your mother created.
Hell on earth, brought on with a bottle,
and pleasures of lust,
a bargaining chip for her own sexual perversion.

The arrows you shoot at me are filled with poison
from your own lips, venomous attacks at someone
you hardly know, related by blood only.
Small frightened girl, I understand your pain,
but you have taken flight and need to move on.

Stop wallowing in piles of bitterness,
creating excuses for what can not be changed.
Parents make mistakes, no handbooks are supplied,
you know these things first hand since you have made your own,
yet you are blinded by the fury of anger,
for what was beyond your grasp.

Two different worlds, miles apart,
yet tied by destiny’s trails,
Jealousy brews deep inside your heart;
a pot over boiling with hatred, till this day.

A part of my heart has passed,
yet you continue to rip at my insides,
thinking it will give you relief,
it won’t change the hurt you feel.
I can’t change the hurt you feel.
Look in the mirror at mistakes you have made
with your own choices and realize
perfection, is something we do not possess.
Learn to heal and forgive,
otherwise you will drown in your own bitterness.