I'm sinking into secrecy.
It's hard not to remember the ease
that used to tempt me.
I was so successful at being worthless...
just barely floating by.
Sometimes when I look at her, I just pray.
I'm bargaining with God to let my daughter not be a thing like me.
I wouldn't wish my traits on anybody.
Things are so different now.
And I'm not sure exactly how to judge when I'm doing what is right.
But all I know is that one false move and I'm toast.
At this point, I can't afford anymore mistakes.
I'm pretty sure he loves me.
and I'm totally wreckless without him.
All that's left to do now is to be happy.
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So I know this is weak, but bare with me. I'm rusty. I'm having a lot of overwhelming emotions that don't make any sense and I just had to put it somewhere... I don't really have anyone to talk to...
Please tell me what you think
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Sis... You know that you can always talk to me...
this was really good. It wasnt bad because it was real... dont worry about your daughter making mistakes.... You will raise her to be smart and wise.. i know you will.. so be happy.. you are entitled to it... "It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you feel like you can do anything" take that to heart sis.. its true.. you can do anything now..
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Good write K. Don't worry about the messy part. I've been there. You get your point across, and that's what matters.
Later -Ruben-
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