To be by myself

Kiss goodbye, make me cry
But not in front of you
Give me a hug, give me a smile
So I’ll remember you

It isn’t fair that you should go
You just got here
I barely got a chance to relax
While you were here

It’s like starting to take a deep breath
But only making it half way
Having to cut it short
Because of a sudden wave

Today I took half my heart for a walk
Knowing I’d have to leave it
Didn’t want to believe it

I walked you to the edge of what was right
And had to say goodbye
I had to live a lie

And when you took that first step outside of my space
I tightened up inside, alone again
And as I walked away, I did look back
And had a heart attack

Later the storm came
And when the thunder shook the house
I was afraid
Like I was the last man left on earth

With no one to talk to I climbed back into bed
Even with my eyes open I felt like I was dead
When you walked away the whole world died
The day I had to say goodbye
To you

And that first evening
The clock dragged away the sun like a heavy chore
And the house seems so dark without your face anymore
I get headaches lying in bed not wanting to go anywhere
Cause where is there to go if you’re not there

Food doesn’t taste the same if I can’t hear you call my name
My dreams are empty searches for your warm embrace
Every song is just an echo of your absence
I feel in exile, some terrible exile

Because there’s no one to see if I can’t see you
There’s nowhere to go if I can’t go with you
There’s nothing to enjoy if I can’t enjoy it with you
There’s nothing I want to be if I can’t be with you

If I can’t be with you
I tend to forget how good it can be
To be by myself