Just A Memory

three days and counting
then it will be a year
and its odd how the world
seems with out you here
and its odd how no one
seems to be able to mention
you at all
without me remembering the image
of my last walk down that hall
and its odd how my best friend
gets choked up when I mention the day
its been almost a complete year
and she still doesn't know what to say
and your wife can hardly speak your name
without losing her smile
or her eyes tearing up
though she has come a long mile
this year with you being gone
and its odd because I thought
they'd moved on
I seemed to be the only one
still fighting these demons
the only christian standing
in a room full of heathens


in three days
I will have existed without
you for a year
and I still stand in this
same place
blinded by fear
help me Daddy
I don't know
what to do
how do I move through this life
with just a memory of you

JayLynn
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