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We Can't

You and me, we go for a walk
End up at our secret place.
We always end up there,
With our memories.

Our names combined, written on the wall
Raunchy, concrete, exposed yet hidden
Our place and no one else’s
This is where our passion happened.

Yet now we’re friends, we’re no longer together
That “stuff” can’t happen anymore
We can’t kiss, can’t touch, can’t make those sparks fly
We can’t.

We stand there and stare at our names, that heart
Remember the day you wrote it
That was the first time I told you I loved you
It was a day filled with tears

Now broken up, the feelings still there
Romeo and Juliet; apart not of our own choice
I sit in the chair, you stand behind me
Massage my tense shoulders

I relax quickly under the heat of your hands
I stand up and face you; wrap my arms around your waist
Give you a bear hug; press my face into your shoulder
Breathe in your smell and don’t let go

You don’t want to let me go either, yet you pull away
You hold my face in your hands and stare in my eyes
“We can’t” I think, but I don’t say it aloud
I just stand there and stare, right into your soul

All I see is love

Desire

Passion

Sadness

Our foreheads touch, eyes still locked
I start to warm to the idea
No wait, we can’t; we’re not together
My mind and heart oppose

I see your lips come towards mine
I don’t try to stop them
We connect with passion; sparks and tingles
I can’t get enough

Hands roam, tongues fight
No going back now
I press your face closer to mine,
Dig my nails into your back, bite your lip

I shut my mind off; get rid of those annoyances
“You shouldn’t”
“It’s wrong”
“Stop while you can”

Shut up and leave me be.
Let me enjoy.
Let me have what I want.
Let me be selfish.

We continue kissing, hearts are racing, just as much passion as ever
Then we move; you sit down, I straddle your waist
Your hands go under my shirt; teeth gnaw on my nipples
I’m in heaven

I feel your excitement as your hands go for my pants,
My mind, reality kicks in
“Stop it” it says
“Stop right now”

The voice in my head scares me
I stand up and back away
You look at me, “What’s wrong babe?”
I feel those tears immediately

“I…I can’t” I say
My bra is still undone
“We can’t”
The tears flow and I turn away

“Babe…hey babe look at me; don’t run” you say
Always so tender; always so loving
Yet I know you’re disappointed
You grab my hand and pull me close

Again I’m wrapped in your loving arms
As I sob against your chest
“I’m sorry…I’m sorry” I say,
“I miss you but…we can’t”

I hate myself for stopping it; it felt so right
It’s our spot; our names right there to prove it
It feels like it’s meant to be
But it's only making it harder.

I knew in my mind it would be moving backwards;
Our hearts and bodies feel differently, but my mind is overpowering
It’ll be too painful, we have to move on, we’re not together


We can’t.

Author notes

Option 1

Name: limechic

I had to hold back tears writing this one. Breakups suck, especially when they're caused by externalities. We ventured back to our spot so many times...yet every time this happened, I'd end up in tears because of the war between my mind and heart. We're forced to cut each other off now...have to cut the bond. Even though we're "just friends", our connection is so strong.

Day by day...we'll be able to smile at these memories. How risky we were, could have been caught at any minute. Such fun times...I still think about them =)

Please don't cry as you read it...the memory just came to me.

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  • Shannon62875
    October 20, 2008

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    wow

    I knew i remmebered this write because you entered another one of mine and my comment the the last one on here... but anywa once again... this was a very good write... although it didnt rhyme I LOVED IT!!! I also like reading erotica... Keep up the great work! Good luck in my contest


    Shannon*Leah

  • Shannon62875
    October 7, 2008
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    WOW!!!

    This was really good.. Break ups always suck and you always have that "no i cant" in your mind... Although you want to, you cant let it go that far... There is a difference between friends and friends with benefits... This was a very good write!! I loved IT!!! Keep up the great work and good luck in my contest!!!

    Shannon*Leah


  • Cerbie20
    August 12, 2008

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    this is really really really good. and it is so sad, i actually had tears in my eyes. see... i have this friend, my best friend actually, and him and i are just friends, but we both love each other dearly, but cannot be anything more. we almost always have to prevent oursleves from letting something happen between us when we are together, yet we just dont get enough of it. very good job!


  • l33t-n1nj4
    August 10, 2008

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    I feel so...gaahh I dont even have words...no worries it's all good tho. I have felt it and I felt it again when reading this. amazing peice!! great job


  • Riftkin gold member
    August 7, 2008

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    this is so true...
    when love that once was
    is just good friendship
    and the fellings are still
    there deep down

    one must remember
    the words

    "We can't"


  • Regretlove
    July 27, 2008
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    Oh, how sad. Very well written. Thanks for rthe entry


  • SignifyingNothing
    July 21, 2008

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    Wow

    This is so heartwrenching. Lot's of raw emotion here, this poem makes me really feel for you. Very captivating and moving, this is just so 'real.' I can see why it won a trophy.


  • gettingoutofme
    July 10, 2008

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    This poem absolute hits me deep. I have a boyfriend and know the challenges of drawing lines and trying to cut it off somewhere. This is a wonderful poem and good luck in my contest.


  • BrokenSanity
    July 10, 2008

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    Wow powerful piece, mate. love it, brings back sad memories for me too. oh well. well done for wnning.


  • Missing.His.Kisses
    July 10, 2008

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    wonderful

    That brings memories of my high school boyfriend back. You held my attention till the end & made me feel that inward struggle "i want this, but i shouldn't". Wonderful write.


  • Sound of Madness
    July 9, 2008

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    Thanks for entering this into my contest as well. I'm glad I got to read this part. The imagery is great, and I can feel your pain. Wow, I can't imagine how difficult that had to be. It sounds like the tow of you were a match made in heaven. I'm sorry for your loss. I wish you much luck.


  • edit my world.
    July 6, 2008

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    oh my gosh....-trying to stop crying- if i may relate for a moment...i dated my best friend for 3weeks and well 2weeks later he comes over..and everything about the moment feels right...the fact that we laughed like we were still dating. the fact that he didnt want to leave like before. everytime i shaved lol he had this way of randomly running his finger down my leg...and when he did that my mind swarmed...he just had this way of over powering me in a way that i agreed with [not sexually of course] but playfully by grabbing me from behind just gah random things that used to make me laugh. anyway when he left we hugged but it felt weird like there was something missing and there was...but he couldnt because he was with some tart that "loved him" makes me sick....for the fact that ive known him since we were kids..and i fell in love with this dude...he doesnt know but gosh...it feels right to tell him...

    anyway lol back to your poem...i really liked this of course it hit home very strongly...this is just so THERE lol that's one way i can explain it...its just so emotional..so truthful and thanks for sharing it with me love thanks for entering and good luck

    ♥Toxic


  • pattyann4500
    July 6, 2008

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    There is much pain in this love affair. I'm sorry you have had to relive this over and over, but I thank you for entering it in my contest. Patricia


  • awaiting.deletion
    July 3, 2008
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    magnifique.


  • storiesuntold gold member
    June 23, 2008

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    Beautiful memories

    Within each of us we have such a love etched on the walls of our hearts .To embrace of times of loneliness for first love is a memory forever . Good write here and I hope your heart in time knows its an embrace of our childhood held forever in time
    I give you three clapies its great I am out of points to give you I will red more of your work when I get more points


  • Beauty Of Silence
    June 22, 2008

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    wow!

    a stunning poem! amazing depth and now there's a thin foil of tears around my eyes! your poems are just so heart-felt and they are just so emotional! an amazing write dear, once again! keep penning kays.. keep the faith alive and stay strong!

  • hardeepb
    June 21, 2008

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    I'm glad you could hold tears back...I couldn't...such a beautiful piece ...such a beautiful place...

    Recently...the day I passed her in the halls...and spoke to our middle-girl...I went and saw the names on the wall...went over it in blue pen again...I know you're going to say I might be going backwards...but..."I can't"
    The bond to be cut...it seems like it never can be.

    "Again I’m wrapped in your loving arms
    As I sob against your chest
    “I’m sorry…I’m sorry” I say,
    “I miss you but…we can't”

    I'm sorry too...he must've been hurt...and so have you. You should never have to apologize to him...he doesn't blame you.

    "You don’t want to let me go either, yet you pull away
    You hold my face in your hands and stare in my eyes
    “We can’t” I think, but I don’t say it aloud
    I just stand there and stare, right into your soul"

    This is probably my favourite part...as that view of her eyes...is my most adored picture of her...So simple...so pure...so...loving...

    I never cared if she was selfish as long as it worked for both of us...I don't think she can stop me from loving her.

    I'm not going to put a number rating on this...my heart is on it. <3 / infinite.
    Hopefully...you can still feel my heart beat through this.

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