Untitled thoughts

peering outside the window..
the rain is coming down..
all around me..
it seems like im always having to carry..
a umbrella..
always caught in a rain cloud..
why is life hard??
why is there storms..
that are..
gloomy..
depressing..
gray..
alot like my life..
when is it going to disappear??
when is life going to get simplier??
when the rainbow appears??
what is a rainbow??
what is it made out of??
how do the colors reflect..
what is life..
what is our purpose??
i know its not to just go live a normal life..
is it??
to go to work,school,find a mate,have children..
is that all life is for??
arent we suppost to do something meractulous??
do we have to impress someone??
like god??
who is god
who did life come about
wait the million dollar question is how did he come about
they say he has always been
and my mind just cant grasp that all to well
i want to know more
i need to know more
i want to figuar out life
what its meaning is
what im suppost to do on this earth
while im hear living
but for now im waiting on that rainbow to come..
and for the sun to appear before me..
just waiting..
for the storm to pass..