Euthanizing My Best Friend

She's not just a cat.

She's my best friend.

She will always be my best friend no matter what.

When the told me she was in pain,

And couldn't last much longer and the best thing would be to euthanize her.

I fell to the ground in pure agony.

Is this really happening?

Why to me?

Should I?

At this point I just want to go cry.

I hold her tight to my chest.

I feel her heart beat, Do I really want that beat to be gone?

Still on my chest, she meows.

I hold her tighter and start to cry.

I pet her right by her ear where she likes it, she starts to purr.

I don't want that purring to be gone.

I want her with me.

Why does she have to go?

As I break down deciding.

I know she will always be the best thing that ever happened to me.

She was my life.

I walk over to the kitchen, She starts to follow me.

As I see her stumbling and falling I start to ball.

I don't want her to go.

So I've decided,

I'm going to wait until she can't walk to the kitchen anymore.

I know that sounds really bad, but I just can't let her go...

Not yet at least, well actually not ever.

I Will still have the memories of the first time I saw her.

She was a kitten, in the animal shelter.

I picked her out because she was so playful and full of action and adventure.

Today I went to the kitchen...

She didn't follow me.

She stayed were she was whining and meowing.

So that day, I lost the best friend I ever had.