I taste the rain as it drips from the sky,
it tastes like blood,
the blood of me and my unclean hands.
I hear the thunder boom from the sky,
The sounds that remind me of all those I lost before.
And finally another drop falls from the sky,
and I can feel the toll it takes upon my soul.
Why did you leave me,
why did you deceive me,
to think that one earned my respect so easy.
Presenting myself as intellegent,
an analyst who misses the obvious.
A man that thinks,
becomes a fool of fears.
So as the hurricane swirls me through the sky,
more drops I feel for more tears I cry.
A sin I've indulged in,
the severed pieces of me I try to reclaim,
I want to believe that this wasn't a game,
but once again I've soiled my name,
my values again how they fall to shame,
and I wonder if you are feeling the same.
It's cold out here,
and I'm drowning in blood rain.
Look at these ties oh how they sever,
and yet once again I'm believing forever.
Falling through voids and beaten by fear,
and my only desire is to have you near.
Now I just want to hold you dear,
and hope you never disappear.
Rest your head now don't you cry,
don't ever ask the reason why.
But now I feel I've said too much,
I remember the feel of your warm subtle touch.
I just want to cry as I gently grab your hand,
hoping that you'll surely understand.
That my heart is yours,
and yours only.
I can't stand to lose you,
oh how I'd fall from grace.
And yet I'm swimming in it,
as I look in to your face.
I have thrown away my pride,
to yet again allow destinies to collide.
A vicious mystery how destinies twine,
a TANTAlyzing vision of how you could be mine,
and all these mixed feelings that I can't define.
I fall to the ground,
and my soul I have found,
it catches me when I least expect it.
Tell me why,
I feel I should lie,
and I once again try to reject it.
This is the last time or so I say,
I hope I don't wake up to find you've faded away.
Author notes
I decided to update and modify this poem, almost by accident. The contest holder left a comment on this one today and this is one of my poems that got lost in the shuffle. I read this one and I was blown away. The only thing I could think was, "wow, did I really write this?" This poem symbolizes turning pain into triumph. Inspiration, "porcelain Heart" by the progressive metal band Opeth. Certain events happened on the day that I bought this CD, and you bet I was listening to it as I composed this "heart warming peace." I won't bore you with the somewhat tedious explanation.
I could say so much, but I guess I'll wrap my notes by saying, "I've loved, I've lost, I've denied, I've cried, but I have moved on. Regardless of the nature of the decision, I can no longer dwell on who was right and who was wrong. I will never lose what I almost surrendered. A beautiful phenomenon known as true love."
In a list
A contest entry
- very simple capture me by Nikki Rowles.
1100 points, ended July 30, 2008, 15 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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and I onace again try "and I once again" maybe...just noticed...
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Very touching and honest
honestly..as i read this i felt my eyes tear up..it reminds me so much of feelings i have for someone and how they don't know they'll never be someone more perfect for me then himself
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Irony is running around lately..starting to hate ironies..but good poem!!
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No I don't completely understand it..but I can relate it to me....I love it...very touching...I loved the flow of it...very good....Thank you
Dhrace
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