Memories of a dream long ago, wasted moments there
in sorrow
Chasing shadows where shallow minds go
A window of chance closed before I could know
Empty promises long ago, clueless dreams that
would haunt me into every tomorrow
Wasted youth I would forever regret
A life wasted daydreaming and wishing all my
enemies dead
Or at least just to move on and forget
Sweet kisses and hugs I never met
Such was the life I led. Still I never allowed
too much of that to go to my head
Although to this very day a journey into my past
gets me upset, a journey into pain on any level
An evil delivered by the devil himself
That part of my life now lies buried somewhere
inside myself
Bad memories too sad to comprehend
Bad memories I can no longer defend
For I carry the scars to offend. But any friend
need not worry as I take my job serious to
pretend all is well
These bad memories play in the hell inside my head
And I can only cry in my bed
Thoughts of suicide, no one to confide in
A razer blade and I’m so lost in mortal sin
Deciding whether to die or not, my affliction
for what?
Bad memories piercing my brain, bad memories
focused on pain
Denial would drag me through a profusion of lies
A forced smile
Something I did to deny others my true self
I tried to forget what I should have long ago
But the crazy show inside my head made it
my fiasco
Bad memories to question, a doctors suggestion
it was that I be put on medication
Bad memories I should have left for dead
Bad memories that’s kept me in a single bed
Author notes
Because you are different, others seek to taunt you and put you down. This poem is about the affects bulling can have on an individual throughout his or her life.
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A contest entry
- Best AP Poet Contest by davidbetzer.
1500 points, ended August 2, 2008, 33 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - when life hurts too much by Mountainwhispers.
450 points, ended November 1, 2008, 14 entries
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Comments
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Wow!
This write is so powerful and I can't help but to be so touched by it. Your pain is enormous, and for that I am truly sorry. Bullying is one of the worst torments one can live through. One thing that concerns me though, as this write is listed as personal, is that you are still "pretending" the pain away. From experience I know this does not work. The only way out of pain is through it. Working with someone to talk about, and really feel it again is tough, very tough, but so well worth it in the end. It is never too late. This is not to say that those memories ever go away, but you can learn to love yourself enough to realize that those damn bullies were wrong. With healing we grow inside ourselves and realize our great value as part of the human race, and we learn to treasure the gifts we have been given. Writing can be so healing and I commend you for doing so and sharing your experience. So many can be helped by your words. Great job on this write! Blessings, Patty
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Welcome to Allpoetry
You are a powerful writer. I feel that you'd be quite a powerful speaker.
There is a lot in this that is very true and to read it you are jolted back to a time and place where you too, shared this feeling.
The way you have gotten into the mind of every victim of bullying, shows clearly how alike we all are in our response to this crippling abuse.
Your use of subtle rhyme is powerful, in allowing the piece to roll off the tongue. My suggestion would be to include punctuation.
To use a comma, or a full stop is to allow the reader to reflect on certain parts of the piece before continuing.
To pause to get their breath back.
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